Monday and Mundane Tasks

Here I sit figuring our taxes for last year. Oh how I thought our life would be so different by now. When I was pregnant and carrying Leia I had made all these plans in my head of how we would adjust to everyday living with our beautiful girl in our life. I had even thought about this day last year. I figured I would be doing the taxes on a weekend while the hubs would be entertaining Leia. All the what-if's and what I should be doing but I am not. I am here looking at the damn taxes and trying to get my mind off everything I would like to be doing with Leia. How does one go on after the loss of your child? I am still trying to figure that one out. Please give me strength to move on and cope with another day.