In a Funk

Today I have woke up in a funk. I think it is because we have a meeting scheduled for later today with a therapist. The hubs has agreed to attend and I think it will be good for us both to have some time set aside to talk about Leia and our grief for her. I also had some weird dreams that just put me in this place of missing Leia and life without her here. This up and down of grief is so unpredictable. Things that used to matter no longer are a concern to me. It is all about what if and why did this happen to us. I am sad, mad and feeling sick all at once.