I am having jumbled thoughts this morning. It is the start of another week and I wonder what I will get done and what will just sit and be. In life before this happened I was always working on something for Leia's arrival or trying to get another project done but not anymore. I am lucky if I get a few things done in a day and then most of the time I am either surfing the net about loss or watching some senseless show on cable. I am also finding it hard to focus on things that before were easy. I've attempted to file or send off our taxes but after two hours of working on them last week they are still needing to be done. I wonder when I will be able to get back to some sense of normal or jut being able to move on. But do I really want to do that? I am not sure.
I am looking forward to one thing today. A possible meeting for a group called "Compassionate Friends" that is supposed to happen this evening. I am going to make a call and make sure they are indeed meeting. I think it will be good to be in an environment where others understand and have experienced something similar.
I still haven't been to a support group meeting but I imagine they would be helpful.
ReplyDeleteI found a support group specific to baby loss that was helpful. I've been hesitant to try CF bc I know many people that have lost older children do not view our loss as the same or as valid, and I was worried that if I encountered that I might lose it on someone! Probably just being paranoid, but several people have made me feel that way in everyday life. Hopefully they wouldn't do it at a group. Let us know if it is helpful!
ReplyDeleteTaxes are never any fun, I don't blame you for putting them off! :)
ReplyDeleteI manage to accomplish some things, but there needs to be an immediate result (instant gratification) in order for me to keep at them. I've been painting a lot around our house: trim/walls, you name it & I've painted it. But anything which requires thought is basically too much for me.
I hope your meeting goes well tonight!
Well I didn't go to the CF meeting because I never heard back if it was definitely on. The lady called me back today so I will attempt to go next month. The hospital that I delivered at has a group for infant loss that will meet if there is more than one couple interested. So far there have not been any meetings :(
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