I am having jumbled thoughts this morning. It is the start of another week and I wonder what I will get done and what will just sit and be. In life before this happened I was always working on something for Leia's arrival or trying to get another project done but not anymore. I am lucky if I get a few things done in a day and then most of the time I am either surfing the net about loss or watching some senseless show on cable. I am also finding it hard to focus on things that before were easy. I've attempted to file or send off our taxes but after two hours of working on them last week they are still needing to be done. I wonder when I will be able to get back to some sense of normal or jut being able to move on. But do I really want to do that? I am not sure.
I am looking forward to one thing today. A possible meeting for a group called "Compassionate Friends" that is supposed to happen this evening. I am going to make a call and make sure they are indeed meeting. I think it will be good to be in an environment where others understand and have experienced something similar.