A friend sent me this quote today:
If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again. ~Flavia Weedn
It is hard to think about beginning again when you are stuck in the past. Everything right now is reminding me of this time last year and how we were embarking on our first IVF journey. There is something about spring time and I remember thinking this time last year how everything seemed so hopeful and exciting. It is not that way anymore. I look out our windows and see everyone enjoying their lives and feel like I am stuck in a bubble looking in. I want to not be this way but it is so hard to begin anew or think about moving on when all I really want is for our Leia to be here with us and living with us. But that is not going to happen and I must start anew. I hope one day soon in the near future I am feeling more hopeful and optimistic about everything.
So for now, good-bye and we love you so much Leia Grace. Mommmy thinks about you all time time and hope you know how much we wanted and love you.