Friday, January 27, 2012

Due Date

One-year ago was our Leia's due date. This time last year I am most certain I spent the entire day wrapped in grief. The days were spent moaning and crying that she was not here. Many days I would go into her room and lay on the floor thinking of what should have been. I wish things were different but they are not. Now one-year later I have learned to live with the grief of losing Leia. It never really goes away. It is like managing something and you just find ways to get through the day. I'll be thinking of this all day as I write 27 on work papers and think what I should be doing instead of going into work. Ugh... I wish I could take a mental-health day today. So tempting but I've never been the type to do that.

I leave this post with this quote that I came across yesterday.  Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened. ~Theodor Seuss Geisel

A year ago this would have been impossible to think but now I am happy that I did have 38 weeks with Leia. Just wish I could have had more.

Always in my heart and I look at my favorite picture of Leia from our last ultrasound we had with her.


  1. I do love that quote! Will be borrowing it! Thinking of u today and always!

  2. Beautfitul baby girl! and love the quote also. Thinking of you always...

  3. It's a beautiful picture and I love her little hands and footprints, thinking of you and Leia Grace. xo

  4. Beautiful picture of Leia. It does seem like there should be special days off for days like this...I was thinking I needed a mental-health day yesterday and there was no "special" date, it was just one of THOSE days. Like you I stuck it out, but it would be nice to have a few throughout the year when these things come up.

  5. One of may fave quotes! Beautiful pic of Miss Leia!