One-year ago was our Leia's due date. This time last year I am most certain I spent the entire day wrapped in grief. The days were spent moaning and crying that she was not here. Many days I would go into her room and lay on the floor thinking of what should have been. I wish things were different but they are not. Now one-year later I have learned to live with the grief of losing Leia. It never really goes away. It is like managing something and you just find ways to get through the day. I'll be thinking of this all day as I write 27 on work papers and think what I should be doing instead of going into work. Ugh... I wish I could take a mental-health day today. So tempting but I've never been the type to do that.
I leave this post with this quote that I came across yesterday. Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened. ~Theodor Seuss Geisel
A year ago this would have been impossible to think but now I am happy that I did have 38 weeks with Leia. Just wish I could have had more.
Always in my heart and I look at my favorite picture of Leia from our last ultrasound we had with her.